A poem for me --> Dear God (^_^)

          ~ I wrote this poem a day before my dad passed away. It was actually a task for my English subject where we were asked to write a poem. I don't know why, but when I wrote the poem I felt so sad and as something so burden deep inside my heart but I don't know what is it. I expressed all my sadness in the poem and how I believe God will cure all my pain. When I read the poem during the presentation in class, I nearly dropped my tears away, but still I don’t know what is it that I was so sad about? And later that night, I received a text form my lil brother that told me our dady has already passed away….. So, I believe that this poem was the preparation that God has given to me before He took away my only dady…. Here is the poem..

Dear God (by Jessie Stanley Limbang)

I felt empty this morning,

As there is no one is caring,

But You come to me and smiling,

And I felt like my heart is shining.

I felt lonely today,

As leaving alone in a bay,

But You come to me and bring me to play,

I felt happiness that no one could pay.

I cried badly tonight,

As I have lost in a big fight,

But You come to me and hold me tight,

And said, “Hey, it’s going to be alright”.

So dear God,

Just hear what I want to say…

You always forgive me when I go astray,

When things I do go wrong and I lose my way.

But I knew my Lord,

There is one thing for sure,

That You are always there to cure,

And Your love is so pure,

That others can never give me more……

“Leave everything to God and u’ll be alright..”

          Did u noe who’s Jesus Christ?? Have u ever heard about Him?? Well for me myself, He is my savior.. He always be there for me.. I cant see Him but I can feel Him..(chewah tiru ayat dri filem a walk to remember jap hehe). Aku kenal rapat ngan JC time ku form 2 kot... mmgla aku slalu dgr ttg Dia dari kecik2 lagi tapi time tu mna la aku kisah psal sapa Dia kan.. nyway.. family aku pun x menekankn sgt psal agama2 nie.. nasib aku ada kesedaran kendiri yg kuat hehee…(ye la tu)..

          Nyway, pcaya x korang kalau aku gtau yg JC sentuh hati dan hidup aku melalui mimpi?? Aku pun x sgka aku begitu spesel hehe..(assume jak).. Dulu aku bkannya tau psal agama aku sendiri.. nm jak org Christian tpi dlm hati kosong jak.. begitu la hidup aku sehingga 1 malam aku bermimpi yg pelik.. 
       Dipendkkan crita, dlm mimpi tu aku x sengaja ternampak satu pembunuhan.. disebabkan neves (ye la da tgk org bunuh org dpn mata) aku tertolak sesuatu sehingga si pembunuh terdgr bunyi dan trnmpak aku.. (btw aku x knal la pmbunuh & mgsa tu).. maka si pmbunuh tu lalu la kejar aku.. fuhh.. ke’neves’an masa dikejar pembunuh tu msh dapt ku rasa.. mcm real owhh.. aku lari la punya lari tiba aku trmpak kwn ku seorang nie.. dia suruh aku lari naik tngga yg sngt pnjg.. dia suruh aku besmbunyi kat church yg ada di atas sna.. aku tnpa pikir pnjg trus la naik tgga tu.. lari tnpa pndg blakg lagi uu..fuyoo punyala kuat stamina aku dlm mimpi tu hahaa.. smpai2 jak di puncak tangga aku msuk la kedlm satu buiding mybe church la.. kat dlm tu aku nmpk byk la senior2 aku.. pelik la jugak.. aku nmpk mereka tgh berkumpul smbil berdoa..  aku yg masih termengah2 dan neves tadi trus pergi satu sudut utk bersembunyi n menenangkan diri.. kat sna aku nangis teresak2 sbb takut la kan & da xtau nak buat apa lagi.. tiba2 da la satu org menghampiri aku dan menepuk2 blkg aku smbil meng’comfort’kan aku.. aku crita la kat dia pa yg jadi.. kemudian dia juz reply aku satu ayat yg mudah tpi power.. “Leave everything to God and u’ll be alright.." pastu aku pun terbangun..huhuu..

          Tu la dia.. lpas mimpi tu aku mula dkatkan diri dgn Tuhan.. aku serahkan semua kekusutan hidup aku didlam namaNya yang agung. Aku sgt konsisten dan tekun dlm pelayanan aku utk Dia time tu.. satu perkara yg aku nmpk msa tu, makin aku dekat dgn Tuhan, makin melimpah2 kebaikan Tuhan yg aku rasai.. itula yg dikatakan bersyukur.. Tpi sekarang.. aku da kembali menjauh dariNya.. byk hal yg terjadi membuatkan aku lalai.. Sekarang ini.. aku begitu rindu utk dkat kembali kepada Dia yg ku anggap sabahat, kekasih, saudara, Bapa, pelindung, penyelamat dan Tuhanku..God bless us all (^_^)v

JC = Jesus Christ (^_^)

        One thing I really love about my name, ‘Jessie’ is people can easily pronounce it as ‘JC’..  simple but nice rite? Hehe..  here I have a story about da name JC but it’s not refer to me..

          Ada 1 ketika dulu, aku pgi shopping ngan abang & adik aku kat Sibu..  aku suka 1 kedai nie kat Wisma Sanyan (da highest buildg in Sarawak), nama kedai tu ‘Life’ kot.. kat situ da jual byk aksesori psal Christian.. da buku2, album2 rohani n etc.. msa jln2 tgk brg kat kdai tu aku terpndang satu badge wrna ungu yg cantik.. dari jauh aku dpt lihat tertera perkataan ‘JC’ kat situ.. wahh.. x sngka la da badge yg da bunyi nma aku hehee.. soo aku pgi la tgk dkat2 badge tu.. rupa2nya aku prasan hahaa.. nm ‘JC’ tu merujuk kepada ‘Jesus Christ’.. hehe time tu baru aku tersedar satu hal… nm glamour Jesus Christ ialah JC.. aisehmann… sma ngan nma aku hehee…I loike it soo much.. trus ku pgi beli la badge tu opkos (^_^)

this is it!